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I look extremely tired here..Catching a ferry after work is not fun.Don't ever do it. But I still like this pic coz you could see the joy on my face at the thought of spending 3 days with my lovelies being treated like royalty in Bintan. And we were, thanks to Joanne's dad. What do 3 girls do once they reach their holiday resort with a 1GB memory card? Hahaha..They take photos till Japanese tourists take pity on them and offer to take the pics for them. Joanne's idea..She even gave our feet initials.Notice how my red pedicures for all of us steal the show. And the attention away from our badly-in-need-of-a-pedicure feet. We found this one spot after walking in the sun,along the beach for quite some time. Rocks+vegetation+nice glowing effect+3 girls=picture galore..Hehe. We were quite sad to leave our lil own piece of paradise. Imagaine a bloody double story bungalow with 4 rooms and 3 bathrooms..All for 3 girls! We each had our own bathroom! Though we did end up sleeping on the same bed as we always do on holidays and chalets. We also went for a mangrove tour which sounds boring as hell..But was pretty interesting..We saw snakes and monkeys up close travelling in a lil boat with a very cheeky tour guide. I can't wait for Bangkok in December! Yes..Seems a lil excessive right, all this travelling? But hey, we live once. And we're getting to this age where everyone's getting married and having kids.So I wanna have as many hols with my friends as possible before we have to face reality. *wistful smile* Yawns..Have to go sleep.Work in the morning.. Later...
What people keep saying to me when they know I'm single: "Your prince is on his way"
What I say to shut them up:
"Right, I'm sure he was on his way but a truck hit him."
Silence...
Hahhahahahhaa..All you happy couples should just be that way.Happy in your own lil cocoon of togetherness. Do not start annoying me by trying to fix me up with the rejects of the world. I am NOT some sad despo, though my haters would beg to differ. And do not start saying stuff like "Everyone needs to find someone to settle down with" or "You will be so much happier when you are with someone you love"
Elllooo?? You can be happy 'settling' k? I do not want to 'settle'. I want to earn big bucks, travel, explore cultures and provide for my family. I didnt study and graduate to 'settle' with some 3rd party loser who would probably cheat on me in the near future. Okay..That might have been tad stereotypical of me..But can you blame me? I have been surrounded by ppl and situations that have led me to lose hope in the sanctity of marriage. Hell, i've been approached by married men countless of times. How am I supposed to believe and trust again?
Then again..I've always been a big softie when it comes to love. I am the type who goes Awwww when I see couples happy in their own worlds. So it sucks for me to have transformed into this cynical person. But deep down I still want that prince. I'm such a contradiction. I know. If your head hurts just reading this and trying to understand, try being me.. *raises eyebrow*
"Nobody in my life has ever known me the way you do. Nobody in my life has ever made me feel as good as you do. You know me. You know everything about me. And when you leave me, you're going to leave the real me, the me nobody else has ever seen. That's who you're going to be rejecting. You're going to break my heart. I'm going to love you and you're going to leave. You always do. Not on purpose coz you have the right to leave. You've never promised to stay. That's the way it always is."
Later...
I am without feeling. I am without emotion. I exist only to accomodate and please everyone around me. I built this wall around me I don't really care to break down. I have a burning desire to scream out loud. I don't really know whom i should direct my anger at. I don't know if anyone knows me at all. Will I actually cease to exist as Sumitha?
Different masks we all wear to hide our true and raw emotions when faced with situations we really don't wanna handle. The difference between friends and FRIENDS. The loneliness we feel when we are chosen over another. The absolute heart wrenching pain we feel when we are being compared to another. The question of why standards have to exist amongst human beings. The failure to accept a person as she is.
What do we do?
What should I do?
I have no fuckin clue.
Later...
Bintan rocked!! Yesh it did!
