Monday, September 18, 2006

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me...

Some days..I just feel so tired.. Tired of picking up the pieces of my life.. Tired of just trying to survive in this world that seems intent on trying to bring me down..Tired of trying to let things go..Tired of dealing with crap on a daily basis..Tired with listening to my own mindless mind-drivel..Tired of being me..

Then on those days.. I have friends who bring me to Hans to eat chocolate truffle cake..Friends who hate everyone I hate for no reason except for me hating them..Friends who will tell me everything will be alright though my life seems pretty fucked up to me..Friends who follow me to the gym even though they hate it..And I have a sister who gives me massages when she sees my 'I hate my life" look on my face, buys me chocolate when I'm PMSing and deals with my occasional 'bimbo' phases at home..

So I really shouldn complain..

Just that..

Those days.. Seem to happen ever so often these days..

If that even makes sense..